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It was 2am I guess, I was lying on the bed, inside a dark room where a pink silk covered flourecent lamp was the only source of light. I was about to sleep, but damn I can't sleep, a lot of blurry things that I can't delineate were running in my head, so i just decided to lie down with my eyes open until somnolence triggers. Minutes later, finally my eyes were starting to get tired, and my body's exhaustion from a day of bonding, lies, backstabbing, and intoxication starts to kick in, so I closed my eyes and began to count sheeps.

The moment I shut my eyes, the entire room was suddenly filled by a dark aura. I didn't know why it happen, was it caused by my chat earlier with my bro and friends about supernatural things? I don't know. I started to feel heavy and eerie, and though curiousity was running in the back of my mind, I still can't open my eyes for I don't wan't to see something creepy alone. I began to imagine things while my eyes were closed, black spots that my brother told me about earlier that day, entities that are nothing but energies that only our conciousness can make a figure out of it, creepy cats that can see supernatural things, and something in human form sneaking through the window from the outside.

After a shortwhile of seems like an endless suffering, Curiousity finally won, and I've realized that Imagination with eyes closed is creepier than I thought...

I opened my eyes and looked around the room, I didn't see any supernatural thing, but I did see something...


I saw myself...

Scared,
afraid of the things that I don't know,

Confused,
trying to fit things in the wrong boxes to give myself an illusion of peace of mind,

Realized,
that I can't see no complete light, but just a shed of glint with dark spots that I've chosen to stay with me

Blinded,
still hoping for cats to help me see, when all this time, I have eyes that I myself have blindfolded

I saw myself, looking through the window, seeing my present self, crawling in the dark, looking for keys to unlock the door of the room, the dark room where I've imprisoned myself...

And then I woke up, it was already 1:30pm...

Chained by a Fat and Lazy Chicken

I'm stuck again, restricted myself to what they fucking dictate

Restrained by my prison-like body and mind...

Succumbed myself to what others think that is good for them rather than what I think is good for me

Screaming with envy within, for they are gifted with luck without even giving any effort

Or I'm just really that unlucky...

Should I really continue to be selfless and hindered,
Continue to live with illusions and occasionally escape through cheap getaways just to get by...

I guess they are happy, but am i?

I can never be happy for something that can never bring me any betterment (nde naman siguro never)...

Shit...

And all i can do is to write this entry to ease the pain a little...


It's not about love anymore
But everything...
how I restrict myself
to the things that I want to do
and to the person that I want to be with,
And how I'm so lazy to put away pain
that I chose to live with it

Oh well!

A Blessed Hell of a Movie

I was performing the Art of Flipping Channels on the television this morning (Yun, naghahanap ng mapapanood sa wakas, after weeks of not having my eyes and brain be normally exposed sa idiot box) when I came across with this mexican(or spanish) movie sa cinema one, sakto at kakaumpisa pa lang... The title of the movie is BENDITO INFIERNO (talagang niresearch ko ang titile sa internet para malaman ko).

The story is about 2 angels(one from heaven and the other from hell) na nag-aagawan sa isang kaluluwa ng isang boxer na maaring makapagbago ng ikot sa mundo ng kalangitan at impyerno.

With an unusual cinematography(kung yun ung tawag sa mga pagkakakuha ng shots, transitions na mga ito, at ung mga kulay na ginamit sa film), Gael Garcia Bernal starring on it, and an out of the usual plot and perception about angels and demons, and heaven and hell, ang kulit talga kahit tagelized ung version na napanood ko. You've got to watch the film, nakakaaliw, damn I can't wait to buy a dvd of this flick.

Oh i miss watching films like these...

So ayun, sige... yun nlng muna ang aking maibabahagi sa post na ito, masyado lang ako natuwa sa film na ito na kailangan ko talga gumawa ng post tungkol dito, hehehe!